April 26, 2016 - dianarose
cant sell redcards/mental health
ok so ive worked for target for about 2 months now, and everything is pretty chill most of the time since i live in a smaller town so redcards arent super pushed. But they still are, i still have to ask every guest, and talk about cartwheel. I’d usually get one almost everyday and once got 3 in a row. But i havent gotten any the past few days and its effecting my job/performance. I try really hard to talk about it but either they cut me off or dont have a check with them or just say no. I want to be like,”please get one so i dont lose my job.” my first redcard i had to ask my mom to get one from me just so they would stop bothering me about it. I can be really shy/quiet or i feel like ill get yelled at if i keep pushing it. I also suffer from depression/ bpd (borderline personality disorder) so when i dont get a redcard i instantly get really really upset and try not to show it at my job. I dont feel i should tell anyone at work im suicidal/ on meds because thats something i dont think they want to deal with. But when i do a bad job it just adds on to what i already struggle with/not being good enough etc.Im a fast cashier, probably one of the fastest and always am good at everything else. but redcard wise I dont know what to do or say and it doesnt seem to be working. I cant quit because i really need this job to pay for school/basic necessities. Is there any advice i could have?